Anything I want

Two years ago, I was afraid of wanting anything.
I figured wanting would lead to trying and trying would lead to failure.

But now I find that I can’t stop wanting.

I want to fly somewhere in first class.
I want to travel to Europe on a business trip.
I want to get invited to the White House.
I want to learn about the world.

I want to surprise myself.
I want to be important.
I want to be the best person that I can be.
I want to define myself instead of having others define me.

I want to win, and have people be happy for me,
I want to lose and get over it.
I want to not be afraid of the unknown.
I want to grow up to be generous and big hearted, the way that people have been with me.

I want an interesting and surprising life.
It’s not that I think I’m going to get all of these things,
I just want the possibility of getting them.

Tyra Collette’s college essay from Friday Night Lights.