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Gak kerasa udah menjalani setengah dari Semester 3. Dan ternyata emang bener kata orang, kuliah itu berat. Kerasanya dimari.

Kayanya impossible banget gitu kalo tiap minggu gak ada tugas. Pasti selalu ada, dan gak pernah cuma satu.

Mungkin gue harus gunain cakra atau nen buat bisa langsung ngerjain itu semua.

Tapi gue sih woles aja yang penting beres sebelum deadline.

Yap. Gue adalah manusia kupu-kupu. Kuliah-pulang kuadrat.

Why? Karena gue gak menemukan adanya interest untuk mengikuti hal diluar perkuliahan saat ini.

Entah kenapa padahal dulu gue pengen jadi aktivis, tapi setelah berada di lingkungan perkuliahan ini, hasrat gue memudar. Semuanya kaya diluar ekspektasi. Mungkin gue terlalu berharap tinggi.

Tapi yaudahlah yang penting sekarang walau banyak tugas tapi gue masih punya waktu buat nyelesain anime Hunter X Hunter remake 2011.

Nih dapet dari google ada gambar keluarganya Killua lucu deh (Zoldyck apalah itu susah)

As you know, the main character of HunterXHunter is Gon, but I do like Killua more. Hehe.

THe ENd

PHP

PHP

Pemberi Harapan Palsu? Atau Penikmat Harapan Palsu?

Pada dasarnya, semua itu tergantung situasi dan kondisi.

Ada yang bilang kalo, "GAK ADA YANG NAMANYA PHP, ADANYA KE GE-ER AN"

Dan gue...... GAK SETUJU.

Sebagai pemenang award di PHP-in terbanyak semasa SMA, gue gak setuju sepenuhnya.

KENAPA?

Karena gue mengalaminya.

Untuk hal ke ge-er an, oke boleh deh. Para penderita PHP ini emang kadang ke ge-er an.

TAPI. Coba gimana gak ge-er kalo misalkan perlakuan si tersangka PHP ini sudah terlalu sangat manis setiap harinya.

Gimana gak ge-er kalo lu di sms tiap hari? Dan lu smsan dari bangun sampe tidur lagi.

Gimana gak ge-er kalo lu sering jalan berdua bareng dia?

Gimana gak ge-er kalo lu udah dijanjiin hal hal manis tentang masa depan sama dia?

Gimana gak ge-er kalo di dalem sms atau chat line, diselipkan emot emot yang "gitu" ?

"Mungkin lu yang terlalu ngarep."

Plis deh. Gue rasa remaja jaman sekarang udah cukup pintar untuk bisa ngukur standar ke-dekat-an cewek dan cowok udah sampe tahap mana.

MASA IYA lu bakal ngarep kalo cuma smsan sekali dua kali?

MASA IYA lu bakal ngarep kalo cuma dianter pulang sekali?

MASA IYA lu bakal ngarep kalo cuma disapa dan disenyumin?

YA GA BAKAL KALIIII. ITU NAMANYA TEMEN. GUE RASA KALIAN JUGA TAU (LAGI).

Tapi kalo dia cuma kaya gitu ke elu doang gimana?

Dia smsan tiap hari sama lu doang gimana?
Dia nganter jemput lu terus gimana?

LU GA BOLEH NGAREP GITU?

MANUSIA DARI GALAKSI MANA YANG GAK BAKAL NGAREP.

KENAPA INI SEMUA DISEBUT PHP?

Ini semua disebut PHP karena setelah perlakuan-perlakuan diatas, kemudian lu DITINGGALKAN.

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA. EMANG ENAK!

JADI, SEKARANG, SALAH SIAPA?

HAVE U EVER?

Have u ever felt like everything turns into blue?

Have u ever thought that u wouldn't lose someone but in fact they left u?

Have u ever asked urself what did u do til people forget about what u've done?

Have u ever wondered what people would feel if u went away from their life?

Have u ever felt like u're being ignored by people u wanted them around u?

Have u ever felt like u're nothing?

Have u?

TIDAK!!!!

Ini emang bukan pertama kalinya gue pergi ke toko bahan kue.
Tapi ini pertama kalinya gue ditinggal sendiri, membeli bahan kue yang udah di sms oleh kaka gue.
Gue memasuki salah satu toko bahan kue di Bogor yang letaknya gak jauh dari SMP gue dulu..

Gue membuka sms yang isinya bahan bahan yang harus dibeli.
Ya, gue dan kaka gue berencana buat bikin red velvet.

Gue mulai mencari bahan demi bahan...
Suasana toko sangat ramai karena hari menjelang lebaran. Dimana orang yang ingin membuat kue kering berkumpul di tempat ini. Panas. Gerah. Berdesakan.

An Unusual Ramadhan

Hello there! I'd like to tell you about this Ramadhan (1433H)
This Ramadhan wasn't as easy as before. I mean, this is harder.
Why?

First of all, my aunt was sick and she has to be hospitalized.
Her illness wasn't usual. It's kind of her cerebral vascular broke.
And she had to be bald and did a surgery.

After that, my Mom was sick too. It was like a symptoms of chikungunya.
Then, me. I was sick. Such a symptoms of dengue fever.. My face was pale, and I didn't have any spirits.
My Daddy was sick too. Like my Mom.

The hardest thing is this one.
My uncle passed away because of heart attack.
I was so sad, really sad. I mourned for some days.....

Then, when my family canceled to go to Surabaya by car because the condition of my Dad wasn't good.
So we chose to go to Surabaya by plan. At the first, my Dad didn't get the tickets for 5 of us.
But finally we could go when Eid Mubarak happened.....

Untalented

I don't have to introduce myself anymore. Cause you all know who I am.

I'm an ordinary girl which full of spirits and wishes.

I'm just an untalented girl who was born on 1994.

Now I'm 17. In this 17, I feel like many differences of life.

Have you ever felt like nobody appreciates what you've done?

Or maybe people see you by what you've done. Not what you've been through?

It just... suck.

I've ever joined some competition and the jury acted like they made me drop.

I just hate it. So much. Who don't hate if there are people said that your life is messy just because you don't have any talents like anybody else?

Should I do what you want? Can that thing makes me success someday? Are you the one who make a destiny of my life? I wanna mad but I still appreciate them.

"Hey you, the woman and men. Read this. This is for ya.
So now, I'm an untalented girl.

I just can do a lil beat box, make some quotes, make some stories, become a host, make people smile and laugh, and lil acting.
Once more, my life is messy and I'm untalented.
Don't try to ask some helps from me.

Accept me from who I am. Not what I got."

For the readers,

Keep smiling and enjoying this life! :)
This isn't for ya but for those people :p

KIR IPS SMANDA 2011-2012

Kamis, 3 November 2011

Kriiiing *bel pulang sekolah berbunyi*

Saat itu, gue emang berencana gak langsung pulang karena mau bikin poster PKN bareng sama Angel dan Dita.

Ini emang bukan bagian yang spesial. Karena apa? Karena... Emang ga ada yang spesial di bagian ini.

Kelas gue (IPS 2) lagi dipake lapaknya sama KIR IPS Smanda.

Gue awalnya cuma liat liat doang, tapi... tiba-tiba... 

Gue merasa terhasut. Ya, terhipnotis. Gue merasa pengen bergabung dan merambah kegiatan dalam dunia per-ekskul-an di sekolah gue.

Akhirnya, dengan sedikit perundingan dengan Angel, gue masuk kelas itu dan bilang ke Bu Anet,

"Ibu... Aku boleh masuk KIR IPS gak?" *dengan muka prihatin*

Si Ibu pun langsung menoleh dan berkata, "Iya tentu boleh nak.."

Akhirnya gue masuk dengan tampang clingak clinguk dan duduk di depan.

Di eskul ini emang ada temen gue, ada Lulu, Karina, Aca, Aci, dll.

Gue masuk kebetulan lagi pindah jabatan gitu ketua lamanya.

Ketua barunya As'ad, wakilnya Karina. Dan tiba-tiba Karina bilang dia butuh wakil 2.

Saat itu perasaan gue emang sedikit ga enak. Tapi gue tetep pasang muka kaya ga ada apa apa.

Lalu....

Bu Anet menyuruh Karina buat nentuin siapa orang yang bakal jadi wakil 2 itu.

Dan Karina menyebutkan nama.... GUE. Ya, gue. Gue yang baru aja beberapa menit duduk dalam kelas itu dan baru saja baru banget masuk KIR IPS.

Aneh ga? Aneh ya? Gue juga bingung. Tapi mungkin dia emang percaya sama gue kali. Gue bersyukur aja deh udah dipercaya.

Dan tadi... 5 November 2011 gue dan segelintir KIR IPS Smanda baru aja ngadain Baksos di daerah Kedung Halang gitu. Dan ya... not bad lah.

Oh iya, SELAMAT HARI RAYA IDUL ADHA YA!!! :)

Idk

Hello everybody, I just wanna share something in here.
Don't know why but now I'm feeling so... blue
Yes, I feel bad, I feel like something might happen, or maybe my dream won't come true.

I need someone who can cheer me up, I need someone who can support me.
I feel like I'm livin' alone. No one cares and yap, so desperate.

Gahhh

Today is Sunday and yap! We're starting do activities in holiday! What will you do first? Buy new clothes for Idul Fitri? Buy some cookies? Or what? It's all up to you. I just wanna tell you that this holiday makes me feel lil bit sad cause I can't see "him" at school -___- *curcol

LOST

Lost lost lost.. I didn't lose you. I just don't want to meet you, see your face, hear your voice, and receive your message. You have made me feel this way. Now, I really hate you. Don't ask me why. You have to know it by yourself..

Everything turns into a flat thing. I feel like there's nothing special in a day to day, this is what I called fuckin' life. When I feel there's no one who care with me, when I feel like I've been forgotten by my friends. It was so sucks... Have you ever felt like this before? The one that I hate so much is when I adore someone and my friend adore him too. What the.....

Is there anyone can cheer me up? Live my life? I need it so damn much.

Love is such a damn thing for me right now. I can't see a brighter day if I spend my time like this.

I can't think what is better for me right now, should I give up or keep survive with love?

I'm afraid if the ending will be disappointed. Maybe Avril's song is match for me right now...

"What the hell"

Dsppntd

What the.... God, I'm so speechless!!!! I never thought before if you act like this. You've made me disappointed. And now, I can't believe a man except my dad and my brother. Thank you for making me feel this way.